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2024 Messy Desker resolutions

Ok, trying to type this out on Pages and then I’ll see how I can get it exported/imported to wordpress. At worst copy and paste will have to do. (Update: Yeah, copy and paste it was)

But ok. I’ve started following sketchesnscrubs on youtube and I’ll just her Artist Reset template for this.

I’ll divide it into two categories I guess.

First for the more ‘art’ stuff. Like watercolors, drawing etc.

Second for the more ‘writing’ stuff. Like journaling, pen-paling, blogging.

Highlights of last year:

I managed to get some art done towards the end of the year, found an awesome community, fell deep in the watercolor rabbit hole. But also did a lot, a lot of watercolor.

Unfortunately I didn’t get any penpaling done. I typed up a generic – what happened in 2023 – letter to send to my penpals, but I still want to read their previous letter and reply to that. But didn’t get around to doing so. I did at least start some ‘scrapbooking’ as I call it at the end of last year though, and watching my notebook bulk up with the bits and blobs I stuck into it has been really satisfying.

Because of just how screwed up work got, I didn’t have any expectations or anything in terms of art… But I did wish I could have replied to my penpals at the end of the year… But I just got sucked into doing art and didn’t end up writing any physical letters. Heck, even the ‘digital letter’ will still need to be printed out and sent physically. And I have not done so yet – gotta add in my end of the year covid story now.

Now for things that I want to do this year:

I want to keep less stuff on my chair, and desk… Ideally those two will always be free of things so that I can pop on to my chair and do art anytime. VS now where I have to carry the piles of stuff over to my bed first before I could do art. Same with writing…. I need more space to be able to write. Which is a huge barrier in why I haven’t been able to write… Like it’s just troublesome and more of a mental barrier than anything else. But still a barrier nonetheless. Already some stuff I’ve done like having the water cup always out and almost always filled with water (clean or dirty) made it easier for me to get along with the painting. But that kinda made me want to paint rather than do anything else, like writing, or drawing… Use other forms of art. That and the absolute lack of space on my desk makes that motivation even less. And things are not looking any better now. I’ve got crumpled up but unused serviettes on the desk – from restaurants in Genting. I could use them to dab away paint and stuff but it’s one big mess. There’s all the drugs (well, medication) from the various doctor visits as well as over the counter drugs and lozenges… And lots of trinkets and cups of brushes and pens… And so much stuff.

Do more color pencil stuff and use the supplies that I stress bought (retail therapy) over the black friday sales in 2022. Shop my own supplies basically. A lot of the stuff is still brand new in box. With the wrapper and all still intact. So yeah. That has to change… I’ll like to aim for at least ‘something artsy done every weekend’. No idea how busy work will get and all. Presumably it’ll just be a regular year but who knows. Ideally I’d like to do something artsy everyday. And I would definitely like to move towards that. Maybe even like a 5 minutes quick sketch would be good, and would certainly count. But to be more realistic, just something artsy once a week would be good.

On the writing front, definitely would love to write a lot more often. Both blog wise and penpal wise. And maybe start writing more journal entries again. I don’t think I’m gonna force myself to write in my journal everyday like I once did. But I would like to write again. I didn’t buy any journal for 2024… No hobonichi for the first time since I fell into the fountain pen hobby. But I didn’t even touch my 2023 hobonichi. Don’t think I did the 2022 one either. Those are NOT going to waste, it’s still good paper and I will still use them. But I won’t be making myself write everyday. Write I will. But not like an everyday thing. Oh yeah, you mean the hobonichi techo is meant to be a planner? Sorry, I’ve always used it as a journal. See I work in the lab. When I’m busy in the lab, what I do tomorrow depends on the results of what happens today. I don’t even know what is gonna happen two days later, what use is a planner?

What else do I want to do hmm…

Yeah nothing much. Just slowly going through the stuff I already have, and use them. Toss whatever can’t be used, donate/giveaway stuff I don’t want… And keep writing and doing art. I don’t have anything specific in mind like ‘learn how to draw nice portraits’ or anything of that sort. I do want to experiment with gouache and try out all the weird fancy supplies I got but I don’t have any specific skills that I want to gain in mind.

That’s about it for now I guess. Yeah definitely nothing big or groundbreaking… I mean, what’s the point of setting unrealistic expectations that you know you won’t be able to fulfil? For the satisfaction of writing something down in your new year’s resolutions? Nah. I don’t see a point in doing that.

I have other new year resolutions to think about… Like my goals in cubing etc. As usual I will have my 1 book a month reading goal I guess… I read a lot. But mostly junk webnovels lol. So those don’t count unfortunately.

Alright. That’s all for now I guess. Till next time!

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What a way to end the year…

Gosh. It’s 2024 now. I’m supposed to be back at work. But nope. Sick. Still sick. Kinda been sick the entire Dec.

We did go to Genting over the Xmas weekend, and I did post about it over in my other blog here. But what happened after that was… I came back and started wheezing that night we returned to Sg. Not too bad. It only happened whenever I lie down. Oh yeah, epic cough started on the way back to sg… And it just constantly felt like there was something stuck in my chest/throat but wouldn’t go away, and no amount of coughing made a difference. Next morning it was the same. Went to the doc and got an asthma inhaler.

Then after coming back from the doctor the fever started. And the chills. And then the throwing up.

Found out the next morning that sis was covid positive. Yeah. All that was the covid. How much of it was bronchitis? Probably just the cough and wheezing?

The fever broke after the first day – before I knew I actually had covid… That was Thursday. Friday I tested positive, as did later everyone else in the family. So plans to meet my cousin who came back from Thailand were obviously cancelled.

I didn’t test myself today, but my dad is not positive anymore, his ART test lines were already pretty faint yesterday. Mine was still strong. Not as strong as the first day I tested, but still there. And gosh the coughing. The coughing got pretty bad last night. It hasn’t been a week since the wheezing either and I’m still feeling that tightness/lump right in the middle of my chest. At least there’s been no more wheezing, but I have been taking like four puffs on the inhaler everyday. For a week the doc says.

At least I haven’t been throwing up for like 2 days now… It was like the start of last year all over again when I started throwing up everything I ate and didn’t eat. Like air and gastic juice. Still not eating much now, but at least I’m not throwing up either which is a great plus. I’m wondering when to go back to work. Technically I don’t have an MC so I should be back. But what’s the point if I’m gonna be coughing my lungs out…? And still covid positive on top of that. Nah. I will go in for the post doc interview on Friday though. At least I think that is in person. Guess I’ll do the ART test tmr morning and see how that goes… And maybe message my boss or something.

What saddens me was that I was on leave!!! All those wasted days off spent being sick. And it’s not like I could cancel those days off either, because I can’t carry over any more days into 2024. Sigh. So stuff like my letter writing… I just didn’t write any because the idea of coughing covid particles onto the letters and sending them to people does not appeal to me. I tried to do some art on the second day but just didn’t end up feeling up to it. Did some swatches of the Masha watercolors and they look gorgeous, but that’s pretty much it. After that I just stayed in bed watching youtube, reading webnovels, and playing mobile games. And coughing. Oh and naps. Sooo tired. I took a nap this morning after waking up and slept till like 12+pm. Just so exhausted. Been taking like 1-2 naps a day and a lot of times when reading I would find myself dropping off to sleep, but after actually getting ready to sleep (like turning off the lights and taking off my specs) I would feel awake again.

So my plan to do art everyday that I stayed home obviously got disrupted… Sigh. So many things got disrupted. And now I’m feeling sleepy again…

I’d like to do more art in the new year though.. But I’ll leave that for a separate post. This Jetpack/wordpress app is also really annoying the shi*t out of me. It won’t auto scroll to reveal the new lines, ok fine. But sometimes it just gets stuck there and you can’t even scroll up to see the latest line even if you tried. Either way both are hellya annoying! So done with it… Having to keep scrolling up every 30 seconds or so is very, very disruptive too. Arghs. I wonder if the Apple Pages app supports publishing to wordpress… Or just exporting to html is all I’d need actually. So annoying! Ok, that’s all for this post I guess. Till the next one!